Why are decisions so hard... at least for me. Josh and I have been going back and forth with a big one for the last few weeks. And even though I'm pretty sure we've made up our minds (99.9% sure), I can't help but be scared of what we've decided.
I never thought that staying home with Ella Jane was really an option for us. It's nice having 2 incomes. It's nice not having to budget and being able to buy things we want -- with out having to think about it. That's what we're use to (before we got married, and after). So, for me, I've always planned to go back to work. First, back in April (but we all know that didn't happen) Then in August. But now August is almost here...and my heart is telling me to stay home. Pretty crazy uh, coming from someone who always said, "I could never be a stay-at-home-mom". I guess I'm eating those words now, cause the thoughts of leaving my sweet baby girl makes me so sad. I don't want to miss a single second of her precious moments. So even though we will have to have a budget for the first time, and watch our spending a lot, and maybe even make some sacrifices along the way this year, I'm pretty set on staying home for one more year. Scary? Oh yeah! But work will always be there, right? My baby is only a baby once.